{"id":1617,"date":"2023-09-21T23:15:37","date_gmt":"2023-09-22T04:15:37","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/taramcfadden.me\/?p=1617"},"modified":"2023-09-21T23:15:46","modified_gmt":"2023-09-22T04:15:46","slug":"a-few-nightmares-left-but-not-bad-now","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/taramcfadden.me\/?p=1617","title":{"rendered":"A few nightmares left, but not bad now"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I remember all the abuse she put me through, times I didn&#8217;t fight back.  Most of the ones now are when I would be asleep and she would punch me, hit me, hit me in the back or face because I was snoring.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">It seems that every time I remember &#8220;this one&#8221; I remember 10 others.  She used to say vile things too, to justify it (like I had any control over it).   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