Emotional Maturity

I will willingly admit I’m having to “grow up” from my repressed emotional problems. I met Tara McFadden when I was around 22 years old and because of the abuse I stopped ageing (mentally) at that point in my life. I’ve had to grow up emotionally to be able to handle what I’m going through.

What Tara did is just simply mirror her new victim(s) and moved on, she is still stuck at some age where her “dad threw her against the wall” or “pinned her to the wall by her neck” and her mother did nothing about it, or didn’t properly soothe her /shrug.

Emotional Immaturity is a well understood cause of Narcissism / Sociopathy (ASPD).

With a narcissist you don’t mature emotionally, the way it messes with your mind keeps you at a level you were at when you meet them, or even in some cases causes you to regress. It is generally accepted that they are 8 to 12 years old mentally and emotionally. This is why they act like they do, as most of us grow out of that in our mid-teens, while they never did.

When I first started this process (I hate calling it healing, it’s not healing, it is coping) I was gauged at a low level of emotional maturity and they said that could be permanent, and a big problem. They also said that it was from constant exposure to abuse. My current tests show that I’m “adult+” level now, so that is a relief.

When we were going to get the cabinets for my rental home in back, she rode with me and had her hand on the center console of my farm truck, so I took her hand; as I said in several videos I like touching her in private, public I’m not overtly intimate. In any case her reaction was super childish, she made a goofy face and started bouncing her head around and stomping her foot on the floor of the truck; and it was uncomfortable to see this.

Right now all my tests are showing the same results; answered them honestly. (self-reflection does no good if you lie to your self even).

I decided to add this one as “empathy” can be messed with because of a narcissist like Tara, so, for that I’m actually in a very good place.