I remember all the abuse she put me through, times I didn’t fight back. Most of the ones now are when I would be asleep and she would punch me, hit me, hit me in the back or face because I was snoring.
It seems that every time I remember “this one” I remember 10 others. She used to say vile things too, to justify it (like I had any control over it). The nightmare last night started from one of the times she punched me in the face, but this time (in the dream) she climbed on top of me and just kept hitting me. I’m sure that is one of her fantasies too.
So, the divorce is final and unappealable on Oct 12th. So I’m in a holding pattern till then.